let it all out if you have to

I know what I want. Like it or not, I have to work my ass off and not laze around anymore. For now, I want to get good grades in school. Then, get myself into a decent polytechnic. You don’t hear me saying that often in blog, do you? Because I believed that you don’t have to tell the whole world on what you want and if you do, the chance of getting it might just slip away. Okay, maybe I’m wrong or I’m just paranoid. Like what if I don’t make it through, people will start saying things about me. Yes, people do bitch.

Yesterday paper was tricky! What are the chances of me getting an ‘A’ when I lose out marks on careless mistake and also the last question on theory? Second year is really tough. Note to self: No more fooling around and when it comes to lesson, be punctual and pay attention in class.

Anyway, it’s a special day tomorrow and I don’t know how I should react to it. I think I’m beginning to lose my mind. I can be crying over small issues which meant nothing to anyone of you, and the next moment I’m mulling over on what my Mom told me the other day. I sensed something was wrong somewhere and I refuse to acknowledge it. God, why does it have to be like this?